Well I have actually done some purging of stuff for the yard sale! I've gotten all of the office purged of stuff to sell & of course any trash that happened to be in there. I got about 5 boxes worth of stuff! So that's good. But it took like 2 nights to go thru it. So tonight I would start on the bedroom. Except I'm soooooo tired. Like I could just go home and CRASH. But I know if I do that, then I won't get as much stuff in the yard sale as I'd like to and any money I can make from this would rock. That's what's keeping me going with getting home and doing it. It sucks right now though, cause Matt is sick, so I'm also making dinner first THEN working on getting stuff in boxes. So that's a good hour taken out of my night just getting dinner together.
My mom emailed me today to go eat lunch either tomorrow or Friday for my birthday. I went ahead and planned for tomorrow. Part of me just doesn't want to because of my self-imposed distance from her until she gets 3 months sober. Just cause I don't want this to be seen as some door opening. The only thing that will open the door completely is going to a meeting with her to see her get her 3 month chip. The door is still open...in case of emergency or something. But I don't want to give some false impression. BUT I'm also curious as to what it will be like. I'm nervous. I know I shouldn't be, but I am. I don't want her to try and lay any kind of guilt trip on me. I talked to Matt about it via text and I let him know that I had already planned on taking some cash so I could just throw some money down and walk out if things get to ridiculous with her. Cause I want her to understand that our relationship will not be the same. I can't be unguarded around her anymore. That level of trust is gone, once and for all. It survived the first round of drinking, but hasn't survived the second round. But I still want to have a relationship with her. Cause she's my mom! But things will have to be different so that I don't get walked on anymore.
I've realized in the past few years that I really need to do that with a lot of people more often. I allow too many people to walk over me and it just doesn't need to happen anymore. So. I'm trying to be a grown up and not let that happen. You think it'd be empowering and great, but it's really hard!
Anyway, another reason I'm nervous is that I don't want to give myself a false hope that things are on track to her getting sober. Because I seriously don't think they are. Granted, I don't know cause I haven't talked to her much. It's been a few sentence emails here and there about random shit. But I don't want to have that hope. Cause I'll just get disappointed. It's better to be pleasantly surprised than hopeful now and feel stupid later.
We'll see how it goes. For now I shall go home and purge some more. I'm just glad with the fact that I've actually done that and not slacked off there. Woo!
Yeah, I was all gung-ho about getting stuff into boxes for the yard sale. Did I do any of it? Not even for a second! So now this week I'm REALLY going to have to get down and get stuff into boxes. Especially since Matt starts his new job next week and we really have got to get the office in order so we can put Zoe and her new crate in there. Of course, I can't really rely on Matt to help me out with any of it, even if he were feeling well. So because of that I'm not spending any of the money I make on it for him. I'd still like to take the class at Watkins, but if for some reason it's already full by the time I get the money together, it's still not going towards anything we would share. I'll put it in my savings account or something. Childish, yes. But I'm okay with that. /end bitterness> lol
So everyone at work (except for one person) forgot about Administrative Professionals Day. I know I'm appreciated, cause they show me throughout the year. They totally forgot though. But on Friday they called us all in the conference room and gave the 4 of us that are considered Administrative Professionals some cash! So that was pretty sweet.
On Saturday my Dad and I went to the flea market. It was definitely nice weather to go, it had thunderstormed very early in the morning, so it was still cloudy and cool when we got there and only got sunny about the time we were ready to leave. I got a couple of stuff, my favorite being these elephant candle holders. I'll have to take a picture once I get them cleaned some more. They were very badly tarnished so I bought some brass cleaner and cleaned them Saturday night, but they're going to need another run-thru of the cleaner.
We also went to The Aquatic Critter on Nolensville Road and I got some fish! I wanted to get an angelfish and some others, but they suggested these two tiger-something fish to start with to cycle the tank for 3-6 weeks. Then we'll take them back and get a credit on them and we can get the other fish that don't handle brand new tanks too well. I was very impressed with the people who work there. & their website is also very helpful! I read what they had to start a new tank and it's going well so far! I feel kinda bad about having the fish and then taking them back in 3-6 weeks to get fish I want. Cause I'm just using them. But they don't know that. The guy that helped us out though said these fish are good starter fish, because they're not very social and will get picked on by bigger fish when we get the bigger fish. I don't want to just use them, but I don't want them getting picked on. I guess that's their job. It's all cool.
Rock on! So Watkins has this community education program. I love it btw, I did the Black and White Photo Lab one summer. It was great and a nice chance to continue developing my own film and pictures. I do miss that sometimes. Anyway, this summer they have two computer imaging classes Intro to Adobe Illustrator/In-design CS2 & Photoshop I. I prefer to take the Adobe Illustrator/In-design class. I think that will be more of what I can use here at work and to help me advance into designing stuff around here, not just for work, but also for clients.
But, considering it's going to be $215 for either class, I'm going to have to raise some money first. Cause yeah, Matt's going to be making more at his new job, but he doesn't start it until the 5th of May. So the extra money flow won't be felt right away. Luckily though, Matt's family is having a yard sale and have offered to let us sell stuff at it. & luckily I want to get rid of A LOT of stuff at the house. We've got about 6 years worth of crap (cause we carried a lot over from college) that we never use anymore and we just need to get rid of. I'm hoping to make about $100 at the yard sale, which I think is doable. One year I had one and made enough to pay for Matt's tuxedo rental when he was in his friends wedding.
The yard sale is on the 3rd of May though, so I'm pretty much going to go home tonight and box up as much crap from our office as I can. I gotta clean it out anyway, cause we're going to put Zoe in her new crate in there when Matt starts his job. I don't want anything within chewing distance to her. I also need to start watching more movies for my 300 total for melflix.com cause I don't want to be holding off too much or I'll never get the 300 done. I think I can work for about 2 hours tonight when I get home and then watch a movie after that...right? Oh crap, I also have to wash my hair tonight (it does take a while - well not the washing part - but I do have to straighten it out with this new haircut). Hmm. Eff it! I can do it!
While I am disappointed that the Preds didn't make it past Round 1, at least I don't have to worry about making time to catch the game until it starts up again. Although I am trying to follow the rest of the Stanley Cup playoffs. I'm just very much a newbie to hockey, so I really only know my team. I don't know enough about the rest of the teams to follow. But I'm going to try. Cause now I like hockey too much and want to hear/see it year round. In fact, I'm asking for XM radio for my birthday so I can listen to the NHL channel. In less than a year, I turned into a hockey girl. Who knew?
